Ain't Nobody Got (life)Time(s) for that

Get on your spiritual path now

In June 2024, I stumbled into a spiritual awakening. Due to my circumstances at that time, I was spending two hours exercising daily and anywhere from 2-4 hours engaging in spiritual practices, such as listening to Byron Katie, working through "The Work" worksheets, studying A Course in Miracles, listening to dharma talks, and meditating. This intensive practice opened me to what I now call an awakening—a deep awareness that our thoughts are delusions and these delusions cause our suffering. I also experienced an awakening to the boundless love, peace, and bliss that exists within the stillness of my mind.

I was reflecting today after a difficult break-up conversation, and I realized that my entire life has been about creating space for this spiritual growth.

At 16 or 17, I had a revelation: I didn’t need to have children. The realization hit me like a spiritual download, accompanied by this feeling, “I don’t have to spend time on raising children this lifetime.” But for what instead? I didn’t know at the time.

Later, amid a busy career, I discovered financial independence, and I jumped in wholeheartedly. Even though I felt burnout, I enjoyed my job more than many of my peers. I couldn’t understand why others didn’t find the idea of financial freedom as appealing. I didn’t know what I would do after achieving it. I wasn’t seeking another career—I simply knew I needed more time: time for sleep, exercise, and something more. I had an inexplicable urge to reclaim my time.

Then came the question of romantic relationships. For a long time, I couldn’t see how they fit into my life. I assumed I devalued them because I didn’t feel a strong physical or emotional need for a partner; I don't want kids and I have close friend and family bonds.

This perception shifted in my most recent relationship.  I entered this relationship post "spiritual awakening".  I met someone who seemed perfect for me—someone who showered me with love and affection, someone I genuinely cared for. He was a wonderful companion, and I enjoyed our time together. Yet, despite our compatibility, I felt a deep sense of inauthenticity in giving him my time. I found myself increasingly unable to ignore the pull toward my spiritual path. Every attempt to continue the relationship felt like hearing a loud error beep within.

After the breakup, I drove tearfully in my car, realizing that its time to fully commit to my spiritual journey. It was a moment of clarity, where I could see my life and how my intuition had led me to this point. I understood, in that moment, that there had always been a deeper knowing that my purpose here is spiritual. My purpose is to continue clearing away delusions and awakening to the eternal love that’s always present. Going deeply into this requires a significant commitment of time, and for the first time, I’m completely embracing this path.